Not as easy as they said!

I have been very fit my whole life. This is most likely due to my very active lifestyle ... I played outside every day when I was little (a foreign concept these days) and went from sport to sport (ballet, soccer, basketball, field hockey, sprinting, cross country, gymnastics, modern dance, judo, sports acrobatics etc) until I got pregnant. My plan had always been to continue running and doing prenatal yoga throughout my pregnancy, but certain things (movements and poses) no longer felt comfortable and along with the morning sickness I very quickly became comfortable with sitting on the couch and keeping my legs up. I did keep walking and did prenatal yoga from time to time, but definitely not as much as I would have liked.

It took me a while to get back into working out after James came along (understandably of course) and while I said I would take my time losing the pregnancy weight it is definitely taking me longer than I thought it would. I gained a total of 35 pounds and lost 25 of that very quickly, but those last 10 pounds have been very stubborn for the last 6 months (James is 13 months). I had lost 5 of those last 10 pounds about 2 months ago, but fell back into bad eating habits and gained them back quicker than they were lost.

So here I sit again ... starting my healthy eating and exercising to once again try to beat these last 10 pounds. Don't get me wrong, I know I'm not over-weight, but I would like my body back. I have tried to embrace my new curves and I almost succeeded, but seeing photos of myself just makes me unhappy. Josh always tells me that I am beautiful and attractive and sexy and I love that he accepts my new physical self but unless you truly feel that you are attractive as you are, nobody can convince you otherwise.

I want to love my body again and I want to want to be in photos and I want to not be self conscious in a tight tshirt or bikini. So I am eating a wholesome diet and trying to get exercise 4-5 times a week. I will get healthy and I will feel happy about my physical self once again :)